Either me or him

You rather choose him and don't choose your bestfriend,me!
Why?can I know why?What a stupid choice for you,
I know you since we are still 4 years old,
And at last,you choose a friend that you just know him since this year,
Wow,so great...Non-Sense answer for me...
And now,finally I understand that,friendship is not depends on how long do you know him,or how deeply do you know him.
It's depends on how close that you with him.

I-Was-Attracted-By-A Cleaner

It'd been past for a long time,but one of my friend remind me yesterday.It's really simple but,erm...It's really special.That day,I was traveling at Kota Kinabalu and stayed a hotel.As usual,after taking my break with my dear family.I will go with my elder bro"Jie"to have one more tea.We usually do that because,we really love it.Don't know why,maybe it's because blood is thicker than water.Then,after taking break with dad and mom,we decided to go to Starbuck.Oh my Goshhh,when we arrive there,it's close.It's really dissapointed just only we can't having a tea time.So,I went to a corner where there is a coffee machine and buy a cup of coffee there.Fews minutes later,I walked back to my bro there and I past by a cleaner.The cleaner was cleaning the glasses with newspaper.I keep staring at her while I was walking,heading to my bro there.Suddenly...bang!!!!WTF.I banged myself onto the glasses door.The door is invisible and alongside it was made up of glasses.I quickly look around and gave a sigh of relief with my hand on my forehead as there were not much people around me.Only few of them looked as they heard the loud bang.I was too obsessed with that cleaner that I do not realize it.Then the cleaner told me,"Don't just focus at a things,look further and far away,you will know more than here".After listening her advice,I went to my bro area and continue our tea.And when I walked toward my bro,I smile with no any reasons.Maybe it's because of my soul.

How many 10 years are there in our life? Life must be happy and meaningful.Utilize the time you have wisely,emulate the wain,the older it is,the more valuable it is.

saVing

Knowing somethings is better than nothing,

Going away is better than staying here,

Saving yourself is better than let the evil swallow you,

Safe yourself,I know you can.

Sadness is always having,

But please don't mind it,

Just having a great laugh or smile,

You will understand that's just a,

Simple "question".

All your friends especially me,

will always stand beside you!

Remember it!

Tittleless

 被抛弃的感觉真痛

Moments

Time never stop.I could still remember the things that I have done vividly especially when I was still a years 6 pupil.Sigh,I wish I could enjoy back the moments that I'd stepped and gone through the years.
S J K (C) Siew Ching,my "Mom of School"might not unfamiliar to you,it's one of the most popular school in the Sabah's area,proven by it's hundreds of artifacts and histories.This school is the place where I had began my life with more special and began my first step of touching of music.Music is apart of my life,I still could remember how did the teachers taught me to play a drum.At the time,I thought that joining the music club is just only to gain some co-curricular marks that could help me to get a good university.But after assimilated the culture of that music club,the spirit of music suddenly grows through my heart and mental.And from that time,the observation of music in my life are rising.From years to years,the performences were keep taking parts by us.Eventually,it's 2008 and it's the last year for me to stay at this school.It's a surprisingly year and definitely,It's really tough but for me,it's just a process.Hardly,march approached.This month is really special and important for those who really admire to this club and wanted to become the leader of the club and i'm also the one who really wanted to be the "king" of the club.The day had come.The teachers start choosing the name from the denominate list.At the time,all the fellow members are keep gossiping to each other that they will be the leader.But me,just sitting at the middle of the hall and waiting for the result.My superego and id were keep advising me at the time.Finally,the pens were putting down and the teachers had stop talking.My teacher "Mok sun fu"I usually called her teacher mok,stand up and holding the mic and say that the leader is~~~~~~Chin Hoong Liang.....Wow,I really stunned for the time when the teacher said im the leader because it's MIRACLE.My dream had comes true and it's one of the lesson that taught me so many things.I really speechless with what I had done during that times.It's really a memorable experiences,amazing as well.For those who had read this post,I TELL you,don't think that dreams will never come true.
Well,It's hard to figure how cool was that and I could only searching them back in my mind.I'll keep them inside the deepest of my mind and name the "file" as Memories of 2008.

If God gift me whatever I want,I will choose to travel back to the moments once I was

~Shelter~

Seeking for the shelter,
Looking for the place,
Finding a home,
That could help me to replace my shoulder,
I'm so lethargic of it,Stress are always having in the teenage life,But it's too much for me.
People usually unearth his or her friend's potentials as well as talents,But for me...That's not what I want.The things that I want is a force,a power that could push me to the top.Make me be more stronger,be more humane,be more intelligent.The energy that I mentioned are you.You always giving me the energy that could make me feel more comfortable.I miss it so much,and I rarely having it.If one day,you decided to go into apart of my life,the whole of my life would change for you.But it's hard,because it's really far away but I dont mind it at all.The most importance is the end,the final result and the last,that's I'm the Winner.
(The vision and the mission of my life are...Don't look back,Because life are still going)

I'm Not Complaning

What a stupid non-sence day
I thought 2011 was a greatfully super duper lucky year
But I think I'm wrong
Too many tragedy that comes to me this year...
Oh my goshh,please don't give lot's of that to me,
I'm so lethargic of it,But i'm not complaning,
Because I know that God you give these all to me is because
Just wanna make me to be more stronger than Other,
But please also give me some luck,
So that I can be more happy everyday

Co-Instantly

Losing the two most important people at the same months.

My Dream Shoes~

It's our Memory :)

Yesterday have a great great Birthday Party,

With all my friends there and celebrate my Old Friend Birthday,

I knew her since I'm 0 years old,

How long is that? :)

Having a great party with them,

It's extremely awesome,

All of our friends seems like more unite now,

All supported each other actions,

Really nice,Feel like we will never forget each other,

Although yesterday I didnt talk too much,

But I can feel the happiness filled the air.

This party Is extremely great,

But it's just having some mistake,

That's didnt have balloons...Opss,

I know we are teenagers,

But Party should be having some balloons ma~ :p,

But nvm,It's is also a great great memories for all of us,

I love you all,My frens :)

Tittleless

你太绝了，连一次机会都不给我。。。

 

It's Just A "Process"

Do you remember when we are still a kids,after we felt down at anywhere...our parents or siblings will come and help you to get up..But..have you ever ignore their helping hands and stand up with yourself?Without any tears,without any advice,use your own physical energy...you could stand up with yourself...If you did it..you are different..Stand up,be stronger,dare to face problems,endure it,dont be loser!You will see more far away from here,And see The Real World that you are standing right here and right now.

"If You Wanna See The Rainbow,You Have to Endure The Rain."

Happy with no any reasons,This is What I want And Im trying to be that...
Free from Stress,Free from drugs,
Free from problems,Free from bad luck,
And Free from Love,
I like it :)

I will compete with you and fight for my Life

>:)

New Aim,New Target,New Life,New Me...

I found you!Finally I found you,
You are extremely pretty and nobody prettier than you,
"N" now,I decided to get you go into my life,
Make you become the other part of my life,
I will get you,no matter how hard and difficult is there,
I will keep going and make you become the other part of my real life

If all the world is just a stage and life is just play upon it,get me two seats in the stalls.

We are the Same

爱其实是一种习惯，你习惯生活中有他，他习惯生活中有你。
拥有的时候不觉得什么，一旦失去，却仿佛失去了所有.
We all are the same...

"IF"

Now,It's 00.00 a.m,12th of July,
This date is really important...
Because IF,If we haven't break...
It's our 5th months anniversary..
But it's just "IF"...

Im Sucessful,Suceeded and sucess

I completed my mission,I achieve my aim...
You found a boy,that you love him much than me...
That what I want,And I hope,He will love you more than me...
Forget me is a right thing,right action,right mind setting...
And I will stand behind you and support you forever,
That's what I can do,And God created me to be like that,
And that's my Job too... :)

Get iT Off!!!!!!
:D...
Forget is the best way to be free...
And I'm the one who always forget the bad,damn,stupid,fucking,silly,crazy,tragedy Things and memories...
Just left the happy,cool,awesome,wonderful,nice,great,fabulous,fantastic,good,Things and memories...
This is what I want... :)

Im Trying to Survive

All I'm trying to do is survive and make good out of the dirty, nasty, unbelievable lifestyle that they gave me.And of course, now that I have found a way, i'm determined to create my own little world in order to survive the one I've...

Me And You :)

You have eyes that could shock me everytimes,

You have a face that I never want other people look at it,

You have lips that are really pretty and red like a rose,

You have a tall nose that i wanna use my nose to tip on it,

You have fragrant long hair that i can smell it from the Venus,

You have two hands that I dream to hold it forever,



I found it,I decided to get You

And I KNEW it,

You are the only one in the center of my Heart...

杯子

杯子

                   


                    杯子寂寞，被人倒进开水，滚烫的感觉，杯子想这就是恋爱的感觉。
                    水变温了，杯子便也觉得很舒服，它想这也许就是生活的感觉。
                    水变凉了，杯子有点害怕，也许这就是怕失去的感觉。
                    水彻底地变凉了，杯子很难受，便想把水倒出来。
                    但当杯子不小心掉在地上摔成脆片的那瞬间，
                    它猛然间发现每一个脆片上居然都还留有水的痕迹，
                    这时它才明白原来自己还是很爱水的。。。。

Boring~

Oh My goshhhhhh...What a stupid fucking boring day...
Keep saying this the whole day...
Nothing can I do beside doze off...
Damn,somebody safe me please...
I hate damn Sunday,rather it become saturday...

Im~Me

I knew myself are not perfect.

But im trying to be it,

as i beleave the phrase,

Practise make Perfect,

All of the people are not perfect,
as what they want,

It's Because our God created it,

Just because to give us a chance,

To Prove What we Are,

To Prove we Can,

To Prove we Will,

and To prove it's possible,

But what im trying is,

Just to become,

~Myself~

(Nothing is the best,But It's Nothing to be worst)

It's just It's

It'd been happen,I should let bygone be bygone

The Lazy Song(Remix)

Today I dont feel like doing anythings,
I just want to start studying~,
Dont feel like picking up my phone,
So leave a message at the tone,
Cause today I decided start studying~.

Oh,I gonna kick my feet up then stare at the fan,
Turn the TV off,and start studying,
Nobody will tell me I can't,
I'll be louging  on the couch just chilling in my snugie,
Click to 325 so they can teach me how to study,
Cause in my castle im the freakin boy.

Yes I said it,I said it,
I said it cause I can... :D

Tittleless

I know you are sick,take care please,
You pain with your physical parts,
And I pain at my heart.

Freedom

I think,I have to let her go,
go for looking for the other boys,
I hope,you will find a boy that love you
Mucher than me,
I hope,you will forget me as fast as you can,
I choosed for go away from you is because,
I love you...

Passed~

只剩下电视陪我谈了一天
睡著的大白天 安静的旧旧的
我想你已表现的非常明白 
我懂我也知道 你没有舍不得 
你说你也会难过我不相信
牵著你陪著我 也只是曾经
希望他是真的比我还要爱你
我才会逼自己离开
你要我说多难堪 我根本不想分开 
为什么还要我用微笑来带过
我没有这种天份 包容你也接受他
不用担心的太多 我会一直好好过
你已经远远离开 我也会慢慢走开
为什么我连分开都迁就著你
我真的没有天份 安静的没这么快
我会学著放弃你 是因为我太爱你

What A Shame !!! :''''''''''''''''(

The 7th day

It'd been 7 days already,still havent tell the truth...
im so sad of it,but today,my teacher had taught me a sentence,
a phrase,called -> Let Bygones be Bygones,
I got shocked of my life because,
My teacher had told me the real life being,
Im so sad,I keep endure it and avoid my tears flowing out,
Haiz,mayb,mayb she had forgot me,
hha,I dont know I'm happy or sad,
Hha, :'(,
Let bygones be Bygones,I think,I have to use a long time to understand it...
The 7th day...

Don't You Ever

it's cold outside 

the door is shut
this broken key
Is all I've got

don't you ever need, I do
don't you ever feel, I do
don't you ever want someone to miss you cause I do
cause I do

don't you ever cry, I do
don't you ever break, I do
don't you ever wanna love someone so much it hurts you
cause I do

A solitary heart
A million miles away
From your ivory tower
Nothing can escape

I wanna break them through
Melt the ice
I wanna get to you
Am I loosing this fight 

Morning Again

It's morning again,the golden sunlight is shining that make the whole world organism start waking up,
But,I still cant fall asleep,the whole night I just lying on the bed and keep asking myself the same question,
"Do her still loving me?"
This question are keeping in the deepest of my heart,
I wish,she will answer me...
Morning...

9.51 P.M

Good Night my dear,
In hope,you will miss me at there,
But it's impossible,
Haha,I think Im crazy right now,
keep thinking bout the impossible things,
Hahaha,please,take care of yourself,
It's raining,wear some more clothes,
I'll be here and waitting for you.
The right time to say,I love You

Smileless

Nothing can make me smile except you,
Try to force myself to smile,but I can't,
Now,I just want to talk with you,
Please,send me a message,just a message to care me,
I'm waitting for this such a long times,
But everytimes I look at my phone,It's just a dissapoint result...

YoU!

Night again,It's night again,
I keep thinking about you,
Surfing your blog,read the post that you wrote for me,
When the first time that I read,I just think it's normal,just an ordinary post,
But now,when i read it back,my tears surdenly comes out,I can't control it,
It's really mean to me,although it's just a few sentences,but it's our mermory,
I'm so sorry cause I didn't give you anythings that you expected to get,
I'm so sorry cause I didn't be a boyfriend that you expected me to be,
I'm so sorry,dear,I' so sorry,I wish to get you back,but I can't
It's over,the game is over,I really sad,that's all my fault,
The last sentence that you wrote in the post was,
"Hope We will never separate again"
and I told you,I do,I will make the love to be stronger,
But now,I can't,Im so sorry,I hope in future,
I will ask you to be my girlfriend again,and you answer me
"I do"

Cloudy,Can't See

Dark Sunday

Woke up at 5.00 am and watching the sun beams it's light from the horizon.....telling me that the important day had come..

It'd been 5days already,and I still can't accept the truth,

Everydays,without you,

Feel's like everythings had been changed,

Feel's like my eyes's stimulus had stop working,

Can't see anythings,Just only the colour of black,Dark,

I'm so scare,I scare my princess will never come back again,

Feel so desolate,no angels come safe me.

Just me,Only me,face the darkness.

Last night,I sat behind you,Extremely,i whispered in my heart,Extremely nervours and happy.

But after a few minutes,you change your sit.

Feel's like my heart breaking into 2 pieces.So sad.

I whispered in my heart,you are really hate me.

I dont know what should i feel,sad or happy.

I feel happy is because,you had been threw my place out of your heart.

Sad is because,you aren't my princess again.

And now,currently,I dont know how to face the night again.

Full of evils!

Please safe me,love a person is just need a second,but forget a person have to use such a long times.

I hope,in future,you will know the truth and tell me,you still xxxx me..

Blaming Myself

You said I’m not giving enough
But baby girl I’m trying so hard to
Keep up, when you fear
That I’m always leave you lonely
But you see that I want us to last forever
And my heart stays open
Darling you know it will get better
But you know that won’t happen over night
We just gotta give love a try
And when you look beside you
Girl I’ll be there

When it rains down your face
Tell me where do the tears end up
Don’t wanna drown in the rivers of your sorrow
And I, I will swim a thousand miles
Just for one minute to see you smile

I’m treading water
Please don’t cry cause you're drowning me

Tittleless

I hate people to ask me to do this and that,
I always art i'm so plessure to do it,
Sometimes,I really think that why all of them dont want to do with their own hands,
It's really annoying and if I can ignore them,How cool is that?
But,except you,my dear,
If you wanted me to do whatever you want,
I will follow your order and done it for you,
If it's hard,I will try to force myself to be easy,
If it's impossible,I will try to imagine that is possible,
If it'd been extinct,I will try to make a new one for you,
I really love you,If you want whatever you like,
I will get it for you,even if you want my life,
I can give it for you.

This long distance is killing me...

With you is where i'd rather be,
But we stuck where we are,
I wish that you are here with me,
But it's so hard,It's so far,
This long distance is killing me,

I just wanna to be with you...

Sad

I really miss you,I really need you,
But you dont even know these all,
I just can stand away and let you be free,
Dear,why it;s become like that?
I can't lost you,you are my all,
Please understand me,please,
I rather you hate me forever,
I rather you think that im the most bad boy ever,
I rather you find a boy to replace and show to me,
Than I can't see you Forever.
(Nobodies know my Difficulties)
I sad until I can cry without any tears.
Everynight,when I look at the sky,
I saw so much of star that make me think about you again,
Your that pretty eyes make the stars feel like didn't shinning.
I need you dear,But I can't get you back again.
That's what I know. :(